Just watched what CM Punk done on Raw, that Promo.
It was wonderful, I am in awe. If wrestlers still spoke like that, people actually spoke their mind - and someone took what he said seriously that is the kind of wrestling I could be interested in again. I love that he did it wearing a Stone Cold Steve Austin t-shirt too. Beast.
I am so destroyed by the loss of Ryan that words cannot describe it. He was such a huge part of our family and it is forever changed without him. Over the last few days, I’ve been flooded with amazing and touching thoughts from both people who knew him and those who didn’t but still loved him. Ryan was a dude’s dude. Here are a few stories about him that I’d like to share…
At Ryan’s memorial Wednesday night in West Chester, people were invited up to the microphone to say a few words about his life, whatever they were feeling at that moment. I walked to the podium and tried to share memories of my dear friend, but the words were just spinning in my head. What came out were the mumblings of a man trying his best not to cry, and I wasn’t even successful at that. I didn’t break down, because I knew Angie or his family didn’t need to see that, but I also didn’t get to properly convey what Ryan meant to me. I won’t be able to do that here either, but I will try. Here is what I wished I could have told everyone then.
♕ Why do you love whom you love? ♖ If you could change five things about yourself physically, what would they be? ♗ From where did your last bruise/cut come? ♘ What are your biggest annoyances about people on Tumblr? ♙ Would you rather relive your worst memory or face your biggest fear? ♚ What did you dream about in the last dream you can recall? ♛ Why do you hate the person you hate most? ♜ What is the last joke at which you can remember laughing? ♝ What is the book you are currently reading? Do you like it so far? ♞ How long did your last phone call last? ♟ How do you typically spend Friday nights? ♠ What are your top five favorite songs? ♡ What are your top five favorite movies? ♢ What kind of music do you like least? ♣ When/why was the last time you felt like punching someone in the face? ☎ What does your last incoming text message say? ☏ What are your favourite tumblrs?
1. How many girls and/or guys have you kissed 2. If you were filthy rich (as in wiping your ass with $1000 bills rich) how many houses would you buy and where? 3. What are you most afraid of? 4. If you could have one thing disappear from this earth, what would it be? 5. What would you rename the current country you live in? 6. If you had to wear one outfit for the rest of your life, what would it be? 7. Think about the one guy/girl you thought “wow, why did I like that person? and tell me about them 8. Do you wish your first kiss was with someone else? And why. 9. Tell me about your first friend 10. Tell me about the last time you cried over someone 11. If you could have one animal as a pet that is considered “illegal” which would it be? 12. Describe a phase that you went through 13. What are a few things on your bucket list 14. Tell me about your girlfriend/boyfriend 15. How many times a day do you think you go to the bathroom? 16. If you could have prevented one disaster from history, which would it be? 17. 3 things you want to say to 3 different people. 1 nice, 1 mean, 1 confession 18. Confess something 19. Something that not a lot of people know about you 20. Think of the last person you stopped being friends with. What happened?
I have never done that before and doubt I will do it again. I still remember being like 12 and pushing myself to the limit to stay up late to watch Jackass every weekday. It’s weird how even though I don’t know him personally, his death still upsets me…
“You are more than the sum of what you consume, Desire is not an occupation
You are alternately thrilled and desperate, Skyhigh and fucked
Let’s stop praying for someone to save us and start saving ourselves”—KMFDM - Dogma.